To Know Nothing

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It makes such sense that we resort to eggs filled with candy, bunny rabbits, elaborate lunches, and our finest clothes.  How else would we function without a few simple rituals while we immerse ourselves in the violence of Good Friday and the absurdity of Easter morning.

I read the Easter story to the boys last night.  In place of our regular bedtime books, I told them of bitter weeping and swords and clubs, the crowds and the single kiss, provocation and condemnation, pointed fingers and shouts of rage, denial and silence, isolation and public execution.

The boys’ eyes grew wide and little bodies so still.  They were captivated, confused, and even a bit scared.  They kept pushing for me to turn the page and read one more story as if that next page might resolve the tension or provide some absolution to the violence.  But I knew this wasn’t possible.  The next page merely added another layer to the complex mystery whose miracle exists with wounds still fresh.  I knew that the story of our resurrected Lord is one of a breathing but punctured body at the hands of human atrocity.

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EASTER: Unreasonable Requests

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IMG_1332John 20:1-18

God of the New Morning,

In the dark, after a long Lenten season, the Easter baskets on display for sleeping boys feels like whiplash.

Wasn’t Jesus’ body just taken down from the cross?  The lanterns, torches, and weapons.  The betrayal.  The aching final breath.  I do not blame the disciples who remain in locked rooms this morning.  Hope feels foolish after a night like that.

Stop my attempts to understand and simply speak my name.

Into the locked rooms, you go (as you always do).  Let the skeptical receive your persistent presence.  Let them hear your unreasonable requests – see, hear, receive, GO, rejoice, preach, testify, live without fear.

Wholeness and forgiveness may seem foolish.  But as the morning rises, they are all that my heart yearns to be true.

In the name of the One whose return from death means everything,

Amen

 

GOOD FRIDAY: Determination

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John 18-19

God of Determination,

Was it inevitable?  Did you see it coming even as the angels sang their alleluias over Bethlehem?  Were you prepared for the lanterns, the torches, and the weapons?

All the tools of torture and the words of shame display the power of human determination.  We must end that which we cannot understand and cannot control.  Our primal instincts sharpen the tools as we point them in your direction.

Just as unyielding in purpose, you step forward to receive the punishment and accept defeat by our hands.  You seem determined to let us act out our determination. Why did you not stop our shortsighted efforts?  Why did you enable our determination to run its course?

How do I trust that which I cannot understand and cannot control?
How do I recognize that my determination might be my own downfall?
How do I follow the One whose determination to care for humanity is unfazed by sharpened swords and shame-filled rants?

Did ever such love and sorrow meet?

In the name of the One who gave not answers but himself,

Amen

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MAUNDY THURSDAY: Remembrance

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1 Corinthians 11:23-26

God of Bread and Cup,The new covenant came on the night when your vulnerability was used against you.  Hours before the whole ordeal of torture tools, thorns, nails, and shame, you served your friends a meal and still spoke words of sustaining hope.

There you sat at the table, exposed to danger and violent threats and yet planted in the community you had formed.

It was one of those moments whose power could not be contained or understood in one night.  It spilled over into years of shared remembrance.  Even now, we gather tonight to reenact the night that vulnerable love persisted in the face of annihilation.

Could I be vulnerable enough to let an ancient night break my heart?
Could I grasp a story so powerful that its memory invades my present moment with a power that dismantles this heart of mine and changes the direction of my life?
Could I still take the bread and cup even though I cannot be sure if I would have been the women wailing or Peter saving himself?

I confess the utter foolishness of giving my present life to an ancient story.  I confess the gravitational pull I feel away from following the patient sufferer.  I confess that Holy Week takes work.  And yet, I confess this faith that I cannot understand is saving me.

For the endurance of the story, I stand in awe.
For the remembrance of a night, I take the bread and cup.
For the saving mystery, I give my life.

In the name of the One whose ancient act remains somehow just as powerful today,

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HOLY TUESDAY: Refuge

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Psalm 71:1-14

God who is what I need,

The door creaks open, the first sound to emerge since I sat down at the kitchen table.  The house is still dark.  The sun is still working on rising.  His feet walk slowly, carrying a tired boy to his mommy’s lap.  Eyes squinted, he climbs into my lap and curls up so that I might hold all of him.  For a few quiet moments, I am his refuge.

God who is my refuge, I find you in the same way.  In the morning while all is still quiet, ancient words draw me up into the lap of the divine One whose refuge is as real as arms wrapped around me.

What I need, you are.  Let that be enough.

Amen