to struggle used to be
to grab with both hands

and shake
and twist
and turn
and push
and shove and not give in

but wrest an answer from it all
as jacob did a blessing.

but there is another way
to struggle with an issue, a question –
simply to jump

off

into the abyss
and find ourselves

floating
falling
tumbling
being led

slowly and gently
but surely
to the answers god has for us –
to watch the answers unfold
before our eyes and still
to be a part of the unfolding

but, oh! the trust
necessary for this new way!
not to be always reaching out
for the old hand-holds.

~a new way of struggling by susan w. n. ruach